ALL THE DOORS BEGAN CLOSING AND NEW ONES HAVE SLOWLY BEGUN OPENING
It was the winter of 2014/2015 when my life began to change. These last THREE years have been a whirlwind of events in my life, so many highs and so many lows. At times I can’t even muster up the emotions I’m feeling because I’m still a bit shell shocked.
I am a wife, mom of 3 and was an avid runner who believed living with depression, anxiety, migraines and this fear of food was my normal. I loved fitness (running mostly) it was/is like air to me, something as natural as getting up and brushing my teeth every day. Running essentially became my outlet, my time to just get out of my head, away from my thoughts and just be FREE.
But then I couldn’t run anymore. I remember that last long run like it was yesterday, 17 miles (just for fun) on an early Saturday morning, in October 2014, before a day full of soccer. After this run, I did have a few other short runs on the treadmill but my body just wasn’t recovering and I had to quit and this was the beginning of a new chapter for me.
ALL THE DOORS BEGAN CLOSING AND NEW ONES HAVE SLOWLY BEGUN OPENING.
Running may have been taken away but fitness was still a MUST for me, an outlet I needed so I found other ways to work out and fell even more in love with ALL Beachbody programs and other at home programs that taught me the importance of lifting weights. Being at home is not only convenient for me but also very comfortable for me (something I need so desperately to work on, GETTING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE). I also dove head first into revamping my approach to food and slowly changing my eating habits.
The roadblocks have been endless on this journey to finding better health and to finding me again. Every time I make a positive change I get knocked back down on my ass again. But I keep picking myself up, determined this is the journey I meant to be on.
As I was going through my own storm all I wanted to do was help other people live happier, healthier, fuller lives. So I dove head first into learning and this time I didn’t quit, I just kept and keep going back for more. You see, what you don’t know about me is “I’m a quitter” and have been all my adult life, terrified to fail so before I can fail I jump ship or don’t even start. But not this time...This time it is different.
Over the past year I haven’t started just one project and finished it, I have started and finished 3 and I am just getting started. Although I am so proud of myself I am stuck in this feeling of pure chaos, of the now what, or this isn’t enough, or the look at what you have failed at in the last year. I am working so hard on trying to focus on the here and now, the positives and the trust. To trust that this is exactly where I am meant to be.
Because today even through the ROUGHEST of storms (a storm that still isn’t over), I am still a wife, a mom of 3, a runner again who is living a life FREE of depression, anxiety, migraines, and fear of food! And to add to the list…
I am NOW a Certified Health Coach, A 21 Day Sugar Detox Coach, A Certified Personal Trainer and a Student!